I’ve been getting pretty strong signals from people since I started my decline into this depression/ anxiety episode. People don’t invite me to things, hell they don’t even talk to me. Like, I’ve had a lot more connection building with people who DO get what I’m going through but people I thought I was friends with… they’ve dropped away. I know that it’s unfair and I don’t deserve that but it makes me want to NOT be honest about how I feel. Because when you’re ok you’re not “high maintenance”. Fuck that, I’m not high maintenance. I don’t like crying on people’s shoulders. I don’t need anyone’s help. For better or worse, that’s me.
I feel like I’ve been cut off, not just thanks to all the mental illness but thanks to how people perceive “sick Natalie”.
It’s pretty upsetting and isolating.