I really feel like I am too ________ to blog, to post photos of myself, whatever. I am feeling pretty shit about my place in blogging as a super duper for real deathfat with no money to spend on the scant fashionable garments available. I know I should try and overcome it but the burden is just too much right now.
I am sick of fighting for a space, for any space. All this stuff on Tumblr about being “fat enough” and erasure has really upset me. Maybe I should just quit fighting against it. From people who insist that blogging isn’t “proper activism” to people who think someone as fat as me has the same experiences as someone less fat. Or someone more fat. I’m just upset at the absolute lack of listening and compassion happening right now and I am exhausted.
I know this isn’t positive or uplifting but I am experiencing really negative shit right now.