I am not ok. I’m going to the doctor, don’t stress, but I’m having severe anxiety about it. My distress has layers. Even though people seem to want the best, the imperative is always to get better… what if I can’t get better? I have been anxious since childhood. Taking deep breaths as directed by my carers since childhood. This is real life for me, not a lapse. It’s every day.
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I appreciate the suggestions… but this isn’t just a matter of being unhappy. Things in my brain aren’t working properly to a point where I can’t function properly. I don’t sleep well, basic day to day tasks are too hard to manage, hell, I can’t go outside most days because of fears that most people would laugh at. It hurts when people think what works for them works for everyone… I understand people want to help but it makes me feel even more isolated.