I’m pretty stunned that writing about endos and Metformin on tumblr could make me remember and realise that my life was put in danger. I don’t think it’s because I lack self awareness, just that it’s so easy to fucking internalise fat bigotry in health care - especially when a specialist like an endocrinologist prescribes you something that will supposedly be “for your health”. It’s seriously taken what, like six years to connect the dots?
I’m horrified right now and I already had a lot of doctor anxiety but now… I don’t know how to manage my distrust in doctors and the wider health care system. This person was supposed to be looking after me, and she let me down and put me in danger. Fuck.